Complementary therapies I take in addition to my
medication:
GNC Triple
Strength Fish Oil
$19.99
Serving Size: 1 Softgel Servings Per Container: 60
Calories: 15 Total Fat: 1.5g
EPA: 647mg DHA: 253mg
GNC Mega Men Sport Multi-Vitamins
(Bonus Size)
$34.99
Other Cool Stuff:
Tablet/Pill Splitter
$5.99
GoFit Yoga Mat
$24.99
Homedics LCD Digital Scale $39.99
Attention:
This
website is probably more suitable for people whom are 18
years of age or older. I use vulgarity from time to time,
and I sometimes talk about things that are generally
inappropriate. Sorry you 1st graders. Beat it.
I'm currently taking 400mg Seroquel, 100mg Topamax, 15mg of Abilify, and
100mg of Zoloft daily, and I must admit it's making me very tired. I
may have to drop or increase the Seroquel dose so I can stay awake here
throughout the days. I will probably be adding another mood stabilizer
to the equation within a week or so too. And then my Zoloft dose
will be increased. So I guess my goal over the next month or so is to
adjust my meds accordingly and learn in school and whatever. Whatever,
blah.
My mother told me there was a 60 minutes-type show on television in 2003
that said, "Experts predict there will be a cure for schizophrenia within 10
years," meaning by 2013. That ain't that far away. The meds will
keep getting a little better too as the years go by. Also, think about
The Count of Monte Cristo (rent the movie if you have to). He had to
spent 13 years in the Chateau D'If with brick walls, isolation, and all that
shit. I know I have it better than him. You probably do too.
Remember, he eventually got out of prison and became happy which means
there's hope.
I took Abilify a little while ago which was just prescribed to me earlier
today. Wow. New drug. I was diagnosed as bipolar earlier
today. Interesting. Abilify gave me this huge erection out of
nowhere. But seriously I know I am bipolar, depressed, and delusional
(which comes with bipolar actually). We'll see how this goes. I'll be
back at the new psychiatrist in 2 weeks.
Two days ago when I went to pick up my Zoloft prescription I thought it was
going to be for 25mg or 50mg tablets and it ended up being for 100mg
tablets! My first reaction was oh no, they gave me the wrong
prescription size! Then I thought, oh it's not that bad, I'll just
take one every other day to compensate for the tablets being 50mg too big.
Then I realized you can cut the 100mg into 50mg with a small sharp knife and
take one daily. That's what I am doing now and it turns out I am going
to save $25 on my co-pay next month! Woohoo!
I was wondering the possibility if there is already a cure for schizophrenia
and it's just not available to the public yet. I wonder this because the
antipsychotic drugs keep getting a little better
each time, like we need to build up a tolerance to thee drug that we need in
order to live with for the rest of our life. I also thought of this because the first antipsychotics came out like 45 years ago then nothing happened for 30 like
years seemingly. What the hell? I don't know. As long as
these drugs keep coming out and getting better though I'll be okay. I
should quit knocking the drug companies. They saved my life.
The term "schiz"
means split meaning my mind is split into even pieces. I'm not sure
which parts. I'm also not sure what I am supposed to do once I am
cured. Date another schiz? Cure other schiz's? Write a
song about my experience as a schiz? No. During my moments of
symptom free life that I had on Geodon where I was "cured", yes cured, I was
like a normal person.
I was thinking about alternatives to antipsychotics in regards to treating
schizophrenia and how it's all probably just a joke. First, FDA has
not approved any alternatives. Second, the only people supporting
alternatives are people like Tom Cruise, who don't have mental
illness. Speaking of Cruise, why is he telling kids (his fans) not to take their prescribed medication? You're a sick f*ck
Tom. You seriously belong in prison if you think about it.
Anyway, who is honestly going to stop taking their Seroquel because they
heard Omega-3 Oils work great at treating schizophrenic symptoms. No
one. It's too risky. What most people do if they are going to
try alternatives is start taking them in addition to their
medication then trick themselves into thinking the alternatives are working
because. Well, that's what I did. I even
wrote phony letters to Omega-3 companies before I tried them hoping I could
get free oils. Didn't work. Anyway, people can talk about
alternatives and blah, blah, blah, but according to my next poll,
alternatives will be almost irrelevant. By the way, start voting on
this current poll.
This is a message to all the companies developing new antipsychotic drugs.
If you are developing antipsychotics that are the same as the current ones
but with less side effects then you are practically wasting your time.
Schizophrenics want new drugs that prevent symptoms and do new things.
The drugs right now have tolerable side effects. Yes, we complain
about them but what we are really doing is complaining about our disease.
Think about this. Zyprexa is the #1 used antipsychotic drug in
America, and we all know how fat it makes you, and we all know how no one is
attracted to fat crazy people, maybe not even fat crazy people. If any
company should be developing a drug that has less side effects it's Eli
Lilly because obviously Zyprexa pretty damn effective if it's #1.
Astra Zeneca, what the hell are you doing? I haven't had a side effect
on Seroquel in a while now. Be more aggressive dammit. And as
for the Pfizer company, why the hell is Geodon so fucking weird?
Everyone knows when your drug works, it works the best, but everyone quits Geodon after a while because it's too fucking weird. Still a good
drug, but too weird.
This guy is a lame asshole.
I'd guess the album is just titled this because his old group was called
N'Sync so "Schizophrenic", being the opposite of that, would be a cute album
title, because we all know he's not schizophrenic. I wonder if he has
ever donated any money towards schizophrenia research. Also, if you
search "schizophrenic" in Yahoo! the #4 result is a website that reviews
this album. It seems like something should be done about all of this.
Do any psychiatrists or psychiatric drug researchers read this webpage?
If so, I'll tell you how to become honestly rich. Come up with a drug
that cures schizophrenia and has no side effects. Here's why. If
you can cure schizophrenia, you can cure almost every mental illness known today.
Also, a cure is right around the corner so get crackin' before someone beats
you to the punch. Just imagine the days of the cure...It will start
when every schizo comes out of their basement, steps outside and says "Today
really is the first day of the rest of my life", then they will call you and
thank you for your discovery. And imagine if schizos really do have
some sort of "special ability" that they can use for a good cause? Who
helped them exploit this ability? You. You will have so
much fame and cash you won't know what to do with it. Every female
psychiatrist will want you. Every female schizophrenic will want
you. Every fame and fortune driven girl will want you. The girl
on the top right corner of this page (the "hello..." girl) might even want
you. I, Zachary Odette, will want you. Well, maybe not me.
But the only way to help me and others who are suffering is to cure us.
And if you want to be honestly rich by making antidepressants or mood
stabilizers, make an antidepressant or a mood stabilizer that doesn't affect
your sex drive. I'd bet that almost every complaint about mood
affecting drugs is:
"I can't get an erection." or "My boyfriend can't get an erection."
You know how people with schizophrenia often mistakenly get thrown into
prisons instead of mental institutions? I have a possible solution to
correct this. Have all people who help decide where victims get sent
(like judges, jury, lawyers, etc.) have no traces of mental illness in them,
and if they do have a mental illness, make sure that they take medication
for it and have it under control. However, the only
problem would be testing people for mental illness which you can't really
do. But I'd imagine if you are free of mental illness, you can spot a
mentally ill person pretty easily. Any way, I just don't like the idea
of a judge irrationally throwing a schizo in prison. That means the
judge has a grudge against schizos and probably has some schizo in his
bloodline and therefore himself.
I am going to teach you a random lesson. Never fight a bipolar person.
It's a fight you can't win, trust me. Their adrenaline is more
powerful than strength. And since I so often hear the term bipolar
thrown around and misused today, hear is how you know if a person is
bipolar...if they take mood stabilizers. Keep in mind, drugs like
antidepressants are antidepressants, not mood stabilizers. Bipolar
people can be nice as heck, but don't maliciously harass them for no reason. Okay,
that's it I think. But beware...
I recently bought one of those shirts that says Psych Ward then I went to a
custom t-shirt making place and I had
"Odette" written on the back. There was a custom t-shirt place near the
Steve and Barry's in the mall where I bought the shirt so I said what the
hell? Now I kind of want a bumper sticker that says "Proud schizo."
I was flipping through the channels then I started watching the movie Taxi
starring Jimmy Fallon, Queen Latifah, and this gorgeous babe I've heard of
before named Gisele something. Right when I started watching, Gisele
did this lesbo scene with a female cop, sort of. I made an image you
can see here
which pretty much sums it up. This woman is such a babe. I want
to marry this woman, and to my knowledge I'm not
usually this shallow. Halle Berry might be old news. Just go
rent Taxi skip to the scene I'm talking about. That scene turned me on
so much. I can't wait to jerk off thinking of Gisele next time I jerk
off.
Questionnaire: Okay Zack, truth or dare? Me: I don't care Questionnaire: Truth it is. Would you rather have one fully
functional healthy testicle or a 3 inch erect penis? Me: I don't know. I guess the testicle. Questionnaire: Loser. Next Question. Me: I never said truth or dare. Questionnaire: Would you rather undergo a boomingly successful
operation where a doctor removes one of your testicles or pass a kidney
stone in front of your dad. Me: Neither. Questionnaire: You know the rules of the game Zack. Me: Okay. I'd rather pass a kidney stone in front of you.
Dare.
First day of Honors Social Psychology was today. I disliked how our
desks were in circles and we had to introduce ourselves and say something we
like.
"My name is Zachary and I really like psychology." That is what I said
in my dull voice. I was a little nervous but it was nice. People
weren't sure to laugh or not. Here were a few other things people said
that stood out to me.
"My name is so-and-so and I have 6 brothers and 6 sisters and they are all
at least 20 years older than me." - some girl. What? Is
your mom a 105 year old prostitute? I think this might be an example of a possible
liar.
"My name is so-and-so and I'm addicted to Ebay." - some other girl.
This is an example of a dumb bitch.
Unless she used to be addicted to E, I'm not okay with this comment.
Expel this girl, give her an E, or make a spend a day with a drug addict.
What I'm saying we shouldn't make kids or adults sit in a circle like retards and
introduce themselves and say something they like. We can figure each
other out on our own.
I have finished writing one of my instrumental songs (I think) and now I am
going to try and justify how and why I wrote it. Think of it as
nations going to war when you hear it. I don't know if I did that
because I like incorporating worldly music together, because of Tom Cruise's
latest movie War of the Worlds, because I recently bought a green t-shirt
with a peace sign on it, or because I'm just craz-zay. Let me break it
down for ya anyway.
1.) The intro
- It starts out with Africa Vs. China because the guitar riffs going back
and forth sound like a war that's about to start between people who dance
around fires and people who work at a Chinese restaurant.
2.) Verse 1 -
This part sounds Civil War like with cannons going off and guns reloading
and America getting involved in a war that doesn't concern them.
3.) Interlude
- Back to the intro, or an argument as to why the war started in the first
place.
4.) The Chorus
- This is when the first battle takes place.
5.) Verse 2 -
Back to America getting involved then even introducing their own plan.
6.) Intro again
- Back to Africa and China arguing over why the war started.
7.) Interlude
- This is the point where one nation has to take advantage and make their
move to eventually win the war. In this case, it's China as you can
tell by the samurai guitar riffs.
8.) Interlude 2
- This is the silent, eerie moment before the final showdown...
9.) The Second
Chorus - This is the final Gettysburg-like battle where China slowly
takes over and wins the war.
10.) Guitar Solo
- What better way to end a song then with a lovely guitar solo by me and
having everyone who partook in the war realize what they've just done was
wrong, realize the friends they've lost, and that war is bad.
Okay, I know that there's a good chance that this whole song might make
little sense and that there's a good chance I might just be rationalizing
everything I've done in the last week and then trying to make a song out of
it, or something. Any way, feedback por favor?
There was a point yesterday (approximately 10 minutes) where I wanted to die
so bad. It wasn't schizophrenia. It was severe depression.
It was a feeling of hopelessness of potentially never knowing who I am or
being able to reach my godlike potential. I realized that I am a
narcissist and I must get rid of this trait. I think my whole family
has a shared psychotic disorder. I credit my horribly depressing
moment to me getting no sleep the night before, no meds the night before,
and other possible things I'm unaware of. I never will kill myself,
but I hate truly suffering when I know I can feel true pleasure someday.
My friend and I were talking about Kurt Cobain last night (I have no idea
why) then I thought about how funny it would be if you went to high school
with
Kurt Cobain and he unwillingly got stuck in your phys-ed class, like so many young
kids do. Imagine seeing someone hit Kurt Cobain in the face with a
dodge ball then seeing Kurt get up and start singing Smells Like Teen Spirit
and playing air guitar. Haha. Then all of a sudden he gets hit in the face with another dodge
ball. Haha. I
remember reading an article about Kurt Cobain once that said something about
how he got called "fag" a lot in high school. I think it's great that
he ignored those assholes, but it made me wonder this...Do gay
people get offended when they get called fag? Webster's Online
Dictionary defines a faggot as "a male homosexual" so I don't see how that's
actually offensive to gay people. I guess gay people just generally
dislike the people who say it. I bet that is how Kurt felt.
(R.I.P.)
I have this bulk load of about 40 t-shirts and long sleeve t-shirts that I
want to get rid of. They are mostly college university shirts (Steve &
Barry's type of stuff) and big name brand shirts (Abercrombie type of stuff)
that I am never going to where again. I tried to sell a good chunk
of the college t-shirts in one auction on Ebay but no one bid on them so now
I am just going to give all of these to a homeless shelter tomorrow I think.
I thought about giving them all to Goodwill but it seems like too many
people like me (people who don't need to be buying clothes from Goodwill who
are only there to buy vintage and novelty apparel) buy from Goodwill.
I know I'm about to say is cruel, but imagine homeless people wearing the
clothes I donated to Goodwill.
Example 2: Homeless man wearing a Michigan University sweater: Check
me out man. I went to Michigan University, the Harvard of the Midwest.
That means I'm a genius. Homeless man wearing a Michigan State University sweater: Well
I went to Michigan State. I am a Spartan for life. We're gonna kick
your ass next year.
Has anyone else ever seen that episode of The Simpsons where Apu loses the
Quik-E Mart then he and Homer go and visit some sort of religious Quik-E
Mart psychiatrist leader in India to help them. They get 3 questions
to ask him and the conversation goes something like this...
Homer: Are you really the head of the Quik-E Mart? Quik-E Mart psychiatrist: Yes. Homer: Really? Quik-E Mart psychiatrist: Yes. Homer: Really? Quik-E Mart psychiatrist: Yes. Thank you, come again.
Haha. It was something like that.
Switching topics, if we (people with mental illness) keep talking about
mental illness, it will get cured sooner or there will be a way we can live
with it sooner. My suggestion is to have John Nash host Saturday Night
Live to show that schizophrenics have a sense of humor deep down inside.
"And your host....mathematician, Johhhnnnn Nash."
(during rehearsal all week) Tina Fey: "Hey Darrell, this guy Nash is really weird. He
keeps staring at me. He's starting to freak me out." Darrell Hammond: "Yea I know. The show is really gonna
suck this week thanks to him."
You wanna talk about stinking rich fictional characters? How about
Scrooge McDuck? The only reason I am bringing this up is because how
funny it was when he dove into his pile of coins then came up choking on
them. Or maybe I was just imagining that. Whatever, it's
tattooed in my mind thanks to this disease in my opinion. Haha.
Did anyone else ever have to watch a movie in school called "The Glug?"
I remember everyone in one of my classes was forced to watch that movie when
I was in sixth grade. It was mainly about a kid who was about 12 years
old who developed a serious drinking
problem that couldn't be fixed. I'm still not sure why my sixth grade
class had to watch that movie considering I don't think sixth graders have
much interest in getting drunk. Anyway, the movie was so funny.
The kid, and his friends stole beer from a truck one day
and left some cash for it (like good little boozehounds) then they all
got drunk somewhere. They all had a good time then after that day they
all wanted to go back to their normal lives except the main character.
He wanted to keep getting drunk every day. He kept stealing
booze from his dad's bar in his basement, and one day (while hanging by the
bar by himself I think, seriously) his girlfriend tried to confront him
about his alcoholism and he was just real obnoxious to her. I swear,
there might have been an ending scene that took place with the main
character, getting drunk and falling off a dock or something.
I want to see the movie so bad because it was so funny and I want to see the
ending which I don't fully remember. I looked for the movie on Ebay
but couldn't find it. Shucks...
ThursdayJanuary 5, 2006 12:06 AM
Somehow I got thinking yesterday about all the innocent schizophrenics who
are thrown in prisons instead of being placed in mental institutions.
I would love to watch the news one day and see them talking about a prison
break involving an innocent schizo.
"He asked me to tie his shoes for him, then when I bent down to help him
something knocked me over the head. When I woke up I heard the escape
siren and another guard told me that the guy who always acts weird escaped because I f*cked up. These
crazy schizos should be thrown in a mental institution is what I think cause
they sure as hell aren't criminals."
- The prison guard
I'm pretty sure that would help get the point across.
"I thought that the Rose Bowl football game last night was truly amazing.
I think Matt Leinart, Reggie Bush, Pete Carroll, and the rest of the USC
organization gave an amazing effort. I even found Will Ferrell's
antics amusing as I always do. I'd also like to comment on the
incident involving the man who escaped from mental illness.
Schizophrenia is very important, and if not for Tom Cruise challenging
America's thoughts then perhaps this wrongfully imprisoned inmate would not
have done what he did."
- George W. Bush
WednesdayJanuary 4, 2006 3:17 PM
I am eating a peanut butter sandwich right now and when I pulled the bread
out of the drawer in the kitchen I read the title of the bread bag to myself
in my head...it was "100% Whole White-Wheat Bread" When I read
that I was wishing one of my friends who watches The Simpsons a lot was in
the room so I could have said "Whole White-Wheat Bread...What
has the world come too?" in Jasper's voice like his character said about the
moon pie.
WednesdayJanuary 4, 2006 2:18 PM
I was lying in bed last night and I was thinking about how I was going to
write a post about some of the stupid children's TV shows my
nephews watch on TV, particularly the stupidest one of all in my opinion
which is about a talking hand named Oobi. Sometimes when I walk by my
nephews in the living room and see them watching that show I take it as an
insult to children everywhere on account of how stupid it is. It makes
me want to write a letter to the company that makes the show and tell them
to stop insulting children with the stupidity of a hand that talks. Then I realized how depressing it would be to get
a return letter in the mail that says "Your nephews seem to enjoy our
program Zack. Maybe you should seek an evaluation if it bothers you
that much. Thanks. - The Oobi Team (or even scarier, - Oobi
Himself)."
Wait, why the hell was I thinking about Oobi while I was lying in bed? That's bizarre. Maybe it was a
sign to jerk off.
TuesdayJanuary 3, 2006 4:29 PM
I got off the phone with my friend Laurie a little while ago (who I now call
Lorelai because she called herself that once in an email and it sounds
cooler to me) then I started playing the guitar.
Here is the song
I wrote which I partially credit to Lorelai's phone company. I credit the phone conversation to that riff
sounding cool. It's one of my songs I tinkered with. Another weird thing is after
I got done playing the guitar I looked at my thumb and it had this rainbow
looking mark on it out of nowhere. I swear it just appeared
from my thumb rubbing the brown-colored back of the guitar neck.
Here is a pick of it.
TuesdayJanuary 3, 2006 afternoon
I plead guilty in court for my DUI and possession of marijuana this morning.
I appeared before the judge, filled out a substance abuse form that had
strange questions similar to "Has anyone ever had to seek counseling because
of your substance abuse habits?", then I saw an obnoxious female probation
officer who was trying to tell me about the medications I take. I
wanted to start an argument to educate that dumb b*tch but like I said in my
last post, I also want the standard punishment so I let it go.
I also thought "Why should I want to educate this person? Maybe I
don't care about her at all." I still have to go back to court in
February to find out what my punishment will be. It is likely going to
be a fine, community service, and substance abuse treatment.
MondayJanuary 2, 2006 2:23 PM
I've noticed a few times now that there is a sign in front of a store near
my house that says "Red Wing Shoes" and has a Detroit Red Wings logo.
I've wondered if this store sells ice skates, shoes with Detroit Wings
logos, or just shoes. The only reason I've wondered this is
because I'm sure this is the dumbest store ever created and also a complete waste
of space meaning it should be destroyed then replaced by a Walmart.
It also makes me think of how much I hate die-hard sports fans, particularly
the ones who live here in Michigan who route for the Detroit Red Wings.
Some of these fans probably consist of entire families that wear matching
Red Wing apparel to every home game and try to only affiliate with people
who route for the Detroit Red Wings. Then during the off season they
probably send hate mail to Peter Forsberg, Joe Sakic, Patrick Roy and the
rest of the Colorado Avalanche organization, which is being hypocritical to
their pathetic rule of life of only affiliating with people who route for
the Detroit Red Wings. I am thinking and caring about
this too much. Damn that stupid "Red Wing Shoes" store which got me
thinking about this topic.
"Hey dudes. Check out my new Red Wing shoes! They're just like
the ones the players wear during the off-season! Anyway, how
many games do you think will win next year? Yea, I don't care either
actually. I mean, who cares as long as we win the Stanley Cup, right?
Hey, where are you guys going? Ha. They must be Avalanche fans."
One out of one-hundred people develop schizophrenia on
average in this world.
ZacharyOdette.com
Name:Zachary Adam Odette Birthdate:06-06-1985 Location:Swartz Creek, Michigan USA Diagnosis: schizoaffective Medications Taken Daily: 40mg of
Abilify at night, 300mg of Wellbutrin in the morning, 600mg of Trileptal at
night, 50mg of Revia at night Complementary Therapies: talk-therapy
once every two weeks, 4g of omega-3 EPA fish oils taken daily, 1000 I.U. vitamin E taken daily,
1000mg of VItamin C taken daily, Mega Men Sport multi-vitamins taken daily,
Magma Plus Green Foods supplement taken daily, animal-assisted therapy (dogs), go running and
exercise daily,
taking two classes at local college, no street drugs taken since year 2005, and
I'm tryin' to give up cheap booze...
