Complementary therapies I take in addition to my
medication:
GNC Triple
Strength Fish Oil
$19.99
Serving Size: 1 Softgel Servings Per Container: 60
Calories: 15 Total Fat: 1.5g
EPA: 647mg DHA: 253mg
GNC Mega Men Sport Multi-Vitamins
(Bonus Size)
$34.99
Other Cool Stuff:
Tablet/Pill Splitter
$5.99
GoFit Yoga Mat
$24.99
Homedics LCD Digital Scale $39.99
Attention:
This
website is probably more suitable for people whom are 18
years of age or older. I use vulgarity from time to time,
and I sometimes talk about things that are generally
inappropriate. Sorry you 1st graders. Beat it.
Friday
December 30, 2005 9:03 PM
I was wondering
earlier about how the FDA is always working on new drugs to cure psychosis,
depression, and other mental illnesses and stuff. Then I thought how it would be
funny if I read in the news one day "Booze moves into phase I for curing
anxiety" because my psychology teacher told me alcohol and tranquilizers do
the same thing to the brain. He also taught us this lesson:
2 shots of 80 proof alcohol = 1 standard tranquilizer pill such as Xanax
"I just read ZacharyOdette.com and I know what medication you take son
so don't you be driven that young girl around on those benzos."
Then I thought about how there are always those articles on
schizophrenia.com that talk about how marijuana can trigger schizophrenia or
can possibly cause it or whatever. That made me think, are there any
secret trials being done for things that cause mental illness? "Marijuana moves into phase III for causing extreme paranoia."
The doctor made me smoke some chronic then I thought the phone lines was
tapped. I was real paranoid. - Jim from Oklahoma
Friday
December 30, 2005 5:52 PM
I recorded one of my songs earlier with rhythm and lead guitar. Click
here if you
want to listen to it. I messed around and f*cked up a little on the
final copy which is still a rough draft ironically. I still want to
start a band kind of, but I probably won't for a few years at the minimum. And I still don't have enough life experience to write good lyrics yet. And I
don't have enough life experience to have good friends or good friends that
are musicians. Sometimes I
think I could create a decent band but then I come to the realization that I
can just create instrumentals that entertain you for a little while.
Lyrics are so much harder than most people probably think. That's why
I usually just try to create instrumentals that get stuck in your head, or
in other words, cause mild echolalia. Also, all the lyrics have to tie together to write great music.
Sunday
December 25, 2005 8:44 PM
I hate how math classes are constantly required. I plan on doing
something for a living that involves all of these subjects psychology, music, or both (because I
am a badass who will master 3 subjects) so why do I have to keep taking these math classes? I am
in college level math classes now and I don't think I will ever apply what I
learn in these classes outside of class. I am going to take a stand
from now on. I am going to start getting grades in math classes that
are "just getting by" grades, like 1.5 GPAs.
Changing to something funny. I just caught a moment of the
Packers-Bears football game on TV and there was a guy on the Bears team
whose jersey read "Tank Johnson" on the back. That would be funny if
Tank Johnson is his last name. "Hi. My name is Semi-Truck Tank-Johnson
and I play football in the windy city."
I went to a family Christmas party today. I didn't want to go but I
went. his quote was my favorite part of the party...
"Hey Zack. I couldn't tell if you were John Lennon there for a
moment." - My musician uncle
1.) Marijuana is a natural substance but puttin' it in a pipe and smoking it
doesn't seem too natural.
2.) A fear of heights is considered an irrational fear even though if you
were to fall it would surely be to your death, making it seemingly a
rational fear.
3.) Factitious disorders (illnesses that are faked) are in the DSM-IV,
meaning if you continuously pretend that something is wrong with you then
something really is wrong with you for always pretending that.
Also, I think it would be funny if the number of people with mental disorders,
when added up,
out numbered the all-stars (I couldn't think of a better word to use for
people without mental illness).
Tuesday
December 20, 2005 10:25 AM
Would anyone be interested in a owning a funny Tom Cruise t-shirt that looks
like
this? I am going to look into making the shirts a little more but
I will most likely get one made for myself for sure. If other people
want one for themsef then I'll do that too.
I recently read an email from someone talking about delusions and how you
can't consciously know you're having them. I have thought about that
before too emailer. After reading that email I thought about it some
more. What the hell is a delusion? I mean, if someone can prove
your delusion to be a delusion, then it never really was a delusion because
a delusion must be a constant belief of something bizarre that no one else
believes (except maybe in shared psychosis incidences). Do you see what I mean? In order for a delusion to be a true delusion,
it can never be proven wrong. For example, if someone believed Mars was
going to attack Earth tomorrow then that would be a delusion because it's
preposterous, however, if someone proved that delusional person wrong (like
Mars experts who call themselves the Mars Volta, er something) then that
delusional person never really was delusional because their delusion was
proven wrong, But I guess maybe a really delusional person wouldn't let
their belief go even if it was proven wrong. Blah. I've said forms of the
word delusion too much.
Sunday
December 18, 2005 mid-afternoon
I was thinking just moments ago of how badly I want to be in a band once
I'm cured. I thought of some cool band names. You can chuckle at them but don't steal 'em punk.
The Meaning of Life
The Heretics
The Latency Period
The Ivy League
Ear Orgasm
Your New Religion
The Guinea Pigs
The People That Might Be Raising Your Children
We Prefer to be left Anonymous
Later added: Or how about a band called The Latency Period with a
debut album titled Ear Orgasm.
Sunday
December 18, 2005 midafternoon
Remember my post yesterday about the kid who lived in my old neighborhood
named Brian? I have another story about a different kid from the ole
neighborhood named Kyle. Kyle basically thought he was the Terminator. He
saw the movie Terminator 2: Judgement Day, and it changed his life. For the
next year or so after seeing the movie (until he saw Indiana Jones) Kyle
dressed up as the Terminator every day, which includes during neighborhood
games of backyard football and trips to Taco Bell. That's pretty much the
story.
Saturday
December 17, 2005 7:01 PM
It seems like people are only associating schizophrenia with the paranoid
type.
I wish a movie would be made that centers around a character who suffers from
disorganized schizophrenia. Picture a movie about an intelligent
disorganized schizophrenic.
Doctor: Why are you writing coo-coo-ca-choo on your leg with
toothpaste? Patient: Because your cousin Vinny told me to.
90 minutes of that would entertain me and educate me.
And there is catatonic schizophrenia too. I don't know if a movie
about a character with catatonic schizophrenia would be very entertaining
though. It would just be a motionless person. Wait, how about a
movie that centers around 3 siblings - one with paranoid schizophrenia, one
with disorganized schizophrenia, and one with catatonic schizophrenia. And they would have relatives with all different types of mental
disorders too (bipolar, major depression, OCD, eating disorders, etc.). There would have to be a family party scene where everyone takes the wrong
meds. Haha. Side effects galore!
Thursday
December 15, 2005 9:58 AM
I was thinking yesterday of potential ways I could like to meet my wife and I came up
with a possible idea. First, I would become a successful musician. Then I would move to Florida or SoCal. Then as I would be walking down
the street one day, I would see a young female musician playing an acoustic
guitar who possesses raw talent and music desire, while a hat full of change sits
in front of her. Then I would grab the hat, put it on her head, then
say to her, "Would you like to make a million dollars then marry me?" Then she would agree because she sees something in me that no other woman ever
has. It could happen. Like George Constanza said in one episode of
Seinfeld, great couples always have a great story of how they met. Like,
"Oh, we were both late for work and our elevator broke down. Five
minutes later we weren't virgins. Five months later we definitely
weren't virgins, plus we were married." <---Ya know, something like
that maybe. Speaking of music, I've been cookin' up some new tunes
lately on the guitar. Some will make your ears orgasm. And some
will make you get up and dance...then orgasm. Sometimes people ask me
why I never sing or write lyrics. Back the truck off. I mean, I don't see
you writing any music. In fact, maybe I'm inventing my own genre of music. I call it echolalia. Besides, the first goal of music is to have a good sound.
Incorporating a message into it is the second objective, I think. But
think about Mozart for
example. Lyrics? I think not.
Wednesday
December 14, 2005 10:50 PM
I just got back from the movie King Kong. I liked it so much that I will
give you my own little review of it (without spoiling any of it hopefully). First off, the fight scene with the T-rex is unlike anything the
previews show. It is awesome. Also, all the animals in this movie are
better than the ones in Jurassic Park. There is a great
scene where Naomi Watts' character (who plays a Broadway actress) does
her act for the audience...and the audience consists of just Kong. I
think Naomi Watts is real cute when she does the Egyptian walk thing.
I was kind of hoping Kong was going to start doing it too. At the
beginning of the movie, I thought Naomi Watts was going to fall for that one
guy (the one who looked like NBA basketball player Manu Ginobli), but then she
ended up falling for Kong it seemed like. Well ladies and gentlemen, I
guess size really does matter. Oooooo. I felt like I had to say
that lame joke. Speaking of size mattering and all, I suggest
eliminating that as a topic of conversation considering 90% of men have the
same size penis. I know this because I've seen every porno on the internet
except for some of those sick ones with horses and dogs and 13 year old
girls/boys who like losing their virginity to horses and dogs and stuff like
that. I'd say 90% of men have approximately a 5 inch penis while all
of us claim (except honest guys like me) to have at least a 6 inch penis.
Hopefully that's true and I'm not actually a guy with a sub par penis. Anyway, back to King Kong. King Kong is like Jurassic Park+Titanic, so it's worth 8 bucks and the price of some popped-corn ya
big cheap bitch.
Wednesday
December 14, 2005 10:50 PM
I finally got around to shaving my testicles earlier today. Ha. I don't know
who I'm shaving them for to be honest though. Hopefully for someone
other than myself. I guess if you're a young buck like me and fellatio
is normal then shaving your privates is common courtesy possibly. Fellatio shouldn't only be done by young people in my opinion though because
I'd imagine it feels pretty darn good no matter how old you are. Maybe
I should stop talking about this. Or maybe I should keep going.
I think my mom reads this website actually, meaning she will read this post.
Hi mom. I feel like one of those drunk college students who hold up
signs at college sporting events that their mom sees on TV, only my mom will
be reading my website. Hmm.
Since I am talking about testicles and fellatio and everything, I might as
well keep going. I mean, what the hell, why not? Alright, here
we go. Every time I jerk off now, it's becoming a little
more realistic. I think that means that I'm chipping away at reality. I really believe that. This means that only through pleasuring myself
can I monitor how in touch I am with the real world. I am developing
more self awareness>self identity>self authenticity>self pleasure.
I almost forgot to mention, Kong comes out today. Not Donkey Kong, but
KING Kong. I hope the movie ends with Naomi Watts saying "Please don't
kill him. Because....because I love him...And I'm carrying our child." and then
it says "Directed by the Quentin Tarantino." That would be wacky. It
would almost be as wacky as that movie Congo where that monkey had a talking
metal arm. "I'm-Amy. Ugly-gorillas-go-away." Haha. Good ole chimp flicks. This isn't related to chimp movies, but why do
we send monkeys into outer space? I am under the impression
(thanks to television) that we send monkeys into outer space hoping they
will come back with higher IQs. Imagine if it actually worked.
The chimp it worked on: "Ha-ha-ha. Fools. All of you.
Toying with the idea of sending chimps into outer space. Now your planet Earth will become...the planet of the apes. Ha-ha-ha."
<---then a human immediately shoots this ape in the head. Random human spectator "Alright. So much for sending apes into
outer space. Does anyone want to try testing new diseases on apes or
just skip right to the plague?"
When I walked by the TV earlier today, a football game was on and there was
a controversial play and the announcer said something like "We can review
the play because the officials can use instant replay now." When he said that
I thought how cool it would be if I had replay in my house. It would
be great to catch one of my family members in a lie or funny situation by using
instant replay.
It might, just might, be something like this.
Me: Did you take the last bagel? One of the bagels that I
bought with my own money? My Brother: No. Me: Well, Peg claims she didn't take it and you are the only
other person living here. My Brother: Maybe you ate it. Me: I would remember if I consumed a bagel or not. Oh, wait a minute. What's this bro? It appears I have you on tape
taking the last bagel...MY bagel. Do you want to watch this with me? My Brother: Fine. I took your f*cking bagel. Me: Wait. We might as well watch this. Haha.
How about in slllooooowwww motion? Hey, where ya goin with that bagel
bro?...more like, WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING TO THAT BAGEL?... My Brother: Stop the f*cking tape! Me: Stop the f*cking tape is right. Are you fucking my
bagel? My Brother: No. Me: Okay. You're not. But why are you f*cking my
bagel? Go buy your own bagels and f*ck them. My Brother: How about you go f*ck yourself? Me: I'd imagine it's more enjoyable than f*cking a bagel.
(Dad pops in)
Dad: Don't knock it till you've tried it Zach.
Then instant
replay is banned from the galaxy.
Saturday
December 10, 2005 2:23 PM
I am always real hungry after a night of boozing. I just made myself
pancakes for the first time in about a year. Well, I actually tried to
make one big pancake (because we all know it's more fun that way) but it
ended up becoming multiple pancakes/slop. It was an okay meal though I guess. The thing about pancakes is that they're always exciting at first, but by
the time you're finished with them you are f*cking sick of them, so comedian Mitch Hedberg
says. Anyway, back to my big pancake. I ended up giving the leftovers to my dogs. Tatum (the half
dog/half cheetah who is becoming a fatso) ate them within seconds. Hector (the half dog/half potato who has always been a fatso) surprisingly
showed little to no interest.
Rest in peace Mitch Hedberg.
Saturday
December 10, 2005 2:06 AM
Has anyone else wanted to kill themself just to prove to other people that
they are suicidal? I used to want to do that back in high school. That's pretty sad and pathetic, I know. I used to be real pathetic...a pathetic youngen I was. PatheticYoungen was my AIM screen name for many
years, but do any of you care? Probably not. Maybe I should
make a new screen name, "ApatheticYoungen" since I'm part zombie now.
Switching topics. Hey ladies, did you know men don't wash their pants?
I haven't washed my jeans in about 30 days. That's not a joke. I've thought to myself that I'm not going to wash them
until someone points out to me that they are filthy. And it just so
happens that about 30
seconds ago, my dog Tatum started licking the right leg of my pants until I brushed her
off. Someone noticed. New pants tomorrow.
Friday
December 9, 2005 3:11 PM
I saw my psychiatrist earlier today. It appears I may be bipolar, in
addition to schizotypal and maybe schizophrenic. I am not too upset about it
though because my illness (whatever it may be) hasn't actually changed at
all. Any who, I am going to start taking a drug called Topamax tonight
along with my Seroquel. I researched Topamax a little and found out that it may be
good for bipolar highs and lows, preventing alcohol craving, and promoting
weight loss. Wow. Maybe I'll get lucky and Topamax will kill 3 birds
with one stone. Or maybe it will just kill me within seconds. Either way, I am always pretty eager to try new a new med.
Wednesday
December 7, 2005 4:43 PM
Let's pretend for a moment that about 45 years ago, Mick Jagger and Steven
Tyler conceived a child together somehow. Then both Mick and Steven
(pictured here)
wanted to pursue their music careers without a child getting in the way
though, so they agreed to put the child up for adoption. The child was
then adopted by a loving family and raised by them until the year 2003, when the
child (now 43 years of age) left home to live in Florida making a living by
selling oranges soaked in whiskey to drunk college students. If all of
that sounds crazy to you, then who is
this man I met
while on spring break in 2003? He didn't try to sell me any oranges,
but he was holding a brown paper bag.
Wednesday
December 7, 2005 11:25 PM
Sometimes I feel worthless. It makes me want an occupation that no one
else in the world wants, but also an occupation where I can just help
people. Catcher in the rye perhaps? No, since that occupation
doesn't exist. What else is out there I wonder. wouldn't mind being
an undercover cop, bomb diffuser, kamikaze pilot, or any other sacrificial
type of human being, so long as I'm doing it for a cause I agree with
of course.
Tuesday
December 6, 2005 8:38 PM
A lot of people with schizophrenia are religious. I don't blame them. If I saw God or heard God, it would be hard for me to say he/she/they/it
doesn't exist. I want more proof that God exists though since I've
never seen or heard him. The only proof I can think of is that matter
is here, so maybe someone or something put matter here since matter can't
be created or destroyed. Blah. I have no desire to join or even learn about
religions though. It seems like the only reason religious people say
their religion is the right one is because their mommy and daddy repeatedly
told them it was. Homer Simpson once said a funny quote about religion
once. It was something like, "What if we choose the wrong religion? Every day we are just making God angrier and angrier." Nice one
Homer. If I ever
join a religion, I am starting my own one. Then I will convince as
many people as I can to join it solely based on the fact that they really
like me so I must know the meaning of life.
Tuesday
December 6, 2005 4:43 PM
Sometimes people have surgeries where they need a part of their body
amputated, like their leg for example. Then before the surgery
actually happens, something is written on the person's leg which which needs
to be amputated like "amputate this leg." Some people think that this
is very scary because doctors haven't figured out a better way to do a
serious procedure like this. Sure it is a little scary, but not as
scary as you think. Don't you feel more comfortable having "amputate
this leg" written on the leg that needs to be amputated rather than
"amputate this leg" on the wrong leg? Or what if they wrote "amputate this leg" on the both
legs by accident?
Maybe I should become a comedian. I think it would be a funny and
inspiring headline to read "Local boy uses medication and a sense of
humor to overcome schizophrenic symptoms & chinchilla-like anxiety and
becomes first blog-comedian."
It would almost be as good as these potential headlines.
"Drunk driver hits another drunk driver as pedophile dies of shock." - Dave
Attell.
Or...
"Botched snap brings out quarterback potential in third string
holder. Montana's Super Bowl MVP record in jeopardy."
Monday
December 5, 2005 2:53 PM
When people wake up with amnesia, how do they know how to talk? Shouldn't they be similar to a child just born into the world since
everything they knew was completely wiped out of their mind. On TV,
people with amnesia are always saying something similar to, "My name?...I
don't remember." How come they don't forget what the words my, name,
I, don't, and remember all mean? I guess the mind is just a strange
thing sometimes.
Sunday
December 4, 2005 11:57 PM
I haven't taken my fish oils in a few days (possibly 10 days or more) and I can't tell the
difference.
I find you attractive. Especially when you aren't wearing clothes.
Just another male,
Zachary Odette
Friday
December 2, 2005 1:46 PM
I went to a frat party last night. There were a lot of attractive women
there but none that I wanted. I wanted to see Emma. I seem to
put myself in bad situations and often not realize it. I will conquer
frustration eventually.
Thursday
December 1, 2005 6:37 PM
Thre girls in my psychology class earlier today were talking about, "which one of
them is the worst at sending emails." I am not making fun of their
computer skills, but the fact that they were talking about this angered me
because
I'm sure all of them know how to send a fine email. Even though I was sitting between
all three of them I didn't say anything 'cause that's what blogs are for.
Thursday
December 1, 2005 10:29 PM
I had a dream last night that I gained about 50 pounds. It was actually
more of a dream than a nightmare too surprisingly because I didn't mind the
weight gain in the dream for some reason. Now that I'm awake though, I
hope it isn't one of those dreams/nightmares that predicts the future and
comes true. Do those ever happen to other people? When my dreams
do that they are always insignificant things. Like my last one was
when I was driving my car in East Lansing then I changed a Zebrahead CD to a
Nirvana CD at a red light. While doing this I thought, "Wow...I dreamt
this exact moment like 6 months ago." See what I mean? Is
this the definition of Deja Vu? I honestly don't know. Moving
on...Almost
all of my dreams are nightmares to be honest. I used to always have
this one where I was running from something but my legs stopped working for
some reason. don't even remember what I was always running from
because I never looked back. I also have a continuing nightmare where
I am surrounded by tornadoes. I'm sure both of these nightmares have
at least some meaning, but I don't really care what that meaning is. What I want is the ability to control my dreams. Some people say they
can be dreaming about things they don't like, then take over and create a
different dream. How great it must be to
have control of your thoughts while you are sleeping as well as when you're
awake. Sometimes I feel like I have neither ability.
About one out of one-hundred people develop schizophrenia.
ZacharyOdette.com
Name:Zachary Adam Odette Birthdate:06-06-1985 Location:Swartz Creek, Michigan USA Diagnosis: schizoaffective Medications Taken Daily: 40mg of
Abilify at night, 300mg of Wellbutrin in the morning, 600mg of Trileptal at
night, 50mg of Revia at night Complementary Therapies: talk-therapy
once every two weeks, 4g of omega-3 EPA fish oils taken daily, 1000 I.U. vitamin E taken daily,
1000mg of VItamin C taken daily, Mega Men Sport multi-vitamins taken daily,
Magma Plus Green Foods supplement taken daily, animal-assisted therapy (dogs), go running and
exercise daily,
taking two classes at local college, no street drugs taken since year 2005, and
I'm tryin' to give up cheap booze...
